wispfox

This post _really_ wanted to be a complainy post. But I refuse!

Instead!

I had gaming again Friday night which was great fun. And eventually I will adjust to playing in a D&D mindset *with* people (most of my D&D-ish experience has been computer games). :)

And there was much time with metahacker and galaneia, with a brief sighting of hfcougar. And I now have Demolition Man and Hot Fuzz trying to combine themselves into a single thing in my head, which made for _really_ odd dreams last night.

Saw devoken for the first time in a while, which was also good.

Grocery shopping and snuggling with jasra was good, as was my call with australian_joe who I did in fact nearly fall asleep on the phone with a couple of times.

I am now a prime number again. This is a pleasing thing.

Many brief conversations with family due to the aforementioned becoming a prime again, which was nice. Even if one of them had the poor timing to call 5 minutes before my call with australian_joe. :)

Many people volunteered to help me with my homework, and there were enough woman that I did not have to start emailing every woman I know. :)

Lots of cuddling, very good. And I shall see my 8-month-pregnant sister, her husband, and her daughter this weekend, to which I shall be _driving_, not commuter-railing.

Tomorrow I hope to sleep until a reasonable time in the morning after going to bed at a reasonable time, to have a reasonably productive day at work, to be reasonably pain-free, and to have a good evening with metahacker. ('reasonable' is apparently my word for the day)

devoken & I are breaking australian_joe's brain.

Why yes, I was catholic. And went to Catholic junior high school for three years...

*whistles innocently*

Doot, doot, do...

I can, indeed, switch my brain into a state where I can be intensely social for long periods of time. But it requires me to not need to keep track of time, makes me _very_ flighty (counteracted by being cuddled), not great at self care, and makes non-highly-social activities not things I want to be doing (so I made it to no panels at all, and played very few games). It also requires that I have people I am utterly comfortable with clinging to/cuddling with reasonably easily available. It also makes me _way_ less good at being aware that I am not seeing as much of people as I might like, if I'm seeing them at all and I _am_ getting time with comfortably cuddly people. It also means that I start getting less able to handle touch from those I'm not as comfortable with. And starts meaning my impulse control goes away (although that may have been insufficient sleep).

I have done this before (when I met the_xtina and cos, and went to the housewarming where I knew no one), but it's been a long time, and I didn't really understand then how to make it last without huge cost. Now I have more data. :)

So! Arisia mathmatics:

( cutting is kind )

Got to spend much of an evening with metahacker & devoken, which was, as always, excellent goodness.

And there was a delivery of chicken soup stock from galaneia, who is a sweetheart for trying to feed and caretake myself and australian_joe from afar, and for reducing the amount of cooking things the stressed-from-Arisia jasra needs to do.

australian_joe seems to actually have gotten enough sleep for the first time this visit, thankfully (I did not get home early enough to have done that myself last night, but it was worth it).

Still slowly improving, myself. Mostly just _really_ tired of coughing!

And now I get to work from work (test how improved I _really_ am) with jasra as ride and company.

Y'know... I'm really damn lucky.

I have the world's bestest roommate (really, any other roommate(s) have one hell of a set of shoes to fill), who I barely knew when she came to live with me. And yet, it worked out well, even when my wrists got stupid at me and she suddenly had a bunch of extra things to do because I could no longer do them.

World's purryest cat. And sufficiently _unlike_ Ash that I rarely have attacks of 'but you're not _my_ cat!'.

I have a job that, while it is part of the problem with my wrists, also understands the problem (possibly better than most medical professionals. Sigh) and works with me around it. And I'm improving. And I make enough money that I can _afford_ the various things that allow me to keep working and also improving.

I have many, many wonderful people in my life, even though some of them are far away and I don't see them often. I am loved, and understood far better than I'd ever have expected to be possible.

I am living in a time when it's _possible_ for me to have met all these people (all? of them I met through the internet, one way or another), to not be completely debilitated by my brain brokennesses, and indeed to have some of those brokennesses actively useful for my job. Where my difficulty with spoken communication can be worked around, and improved upon. Where being born 12 weeks early was not a death sentence. Where I could figure out various of the ways in which I am unusual by finding others similarly unusual online in email lists and newsgroups and such, and discussing things with them. Where I could get my first degree-related job while still _in_ school, because I was involved with a linux users group and friends from there happened to work at a place that was hiring.

Yeah. I? Am damn lucky. And sometimes it's nice to point that out. Perhaps especially when I'm underslept and stressed from work and the insufficiency of direct light.

Good weekend. Very much so. *firm nod*