wispfox

Every so often, I have an intense desire to create. Usually, it feels like I should be able to make something three-dimensional and solid. Unfortunately, I have not the skills to do such a thing, and I can't escape the suspicion that my lack of spatial awareness makes that impossible even with training. I want too, though. Something ethereal, delicate, and lovely. Or functional yet pleasing. Above all, a thing, an object that exists apart from me.

Gardening and plants help, most of the time. But they are things I help to grow, not things I create where there was previously no form or shape or purpose.

I sometimes wonder about glass work or pottery, but both require a fair bit of equipment. And I'm a little scared of actually taking a class. On one hand, whavt if I'm terrible at it, and there goes another possibility. On the other, what if I'm good at it and love it? time, energy, expense, tools, space...

One thing I had very little of growing up is crafts. I suspect it's why people who are good at them fascinate me. I did cross-stitch, and was reasonable at it with patterns provided. It's very very hand intensive and slow going, though. Knitting didn't catch my enthusiasm, also highly hand-intensive. Quilting made my head hurt, as did sewing garments (do you realize how hard it is to make clothes with no spatial awareness?). I played with beading a while, but again with small, fiddly, and hand-intensive.

I've drawn, and if it's something I can see, I'm not bad at it. It somehow doesn't feel like creating a new thing if I'm just reproducing what I see. I wish I could make things out of what is in my head, or at least not from following an existing pattern, I think.

dunno. I wish I could make things...