wispfox

On ozarque's journal:

Verbal self-defense; references on emotional pain research
Verbal self-defense; the ability to "choose" your emotions; part one

And, on theferrett's journal, If you want people to understand you, you must work at it. And understand that even your most loved ones will frequently not know you in the ways you want them to — which, in turn, means forgetting one of your critical hot-buttons is not an automatic and damning proof that they don't love you. It's just the way we're wired.

The weather outside right now is... interesting. Probably will result in me heading home early and working a bit from home. Simultaneous rain, snow, and probably sleet makes for strange driving experiences!

This morning entailed multiple attempts at actually getting out of bed because I kept falling back into a semi-dream state. Was very odd, and highly frustrating, especially when the dream states were trying to convince me that I was already up and doing stuff.

_Must_ stop being intensely lazy and go to the grocery store and do my weekly cleaning of the humidifier! Running out of easy and semi-nutricious things to snack on (because I rarely want to make dinner), and need more lunch food. And my cat is going to need more gooshy food, soon enough.

Am trying very hard to collect my thoughts relating to the weirdness that is my memory, and so far am having trouble getting it sufficiently coherent for my tastes. I would also prefer to not have it stupidly long, which means that I need to put more effort into it (concepts to words tends to make for very long sets of words until I manage to get a better grasp on what I'm trying to say). Is odd having it sorta in the back of my head but not actually working on it due to being sleepy and highly distractable.

Also need to remember to get my cordless landline phone a new battery.

And I'm really intensely starting in my 'not spending extra money' mental state, so as to pay off my damn loans (less than $10,000 left!), and save up for both visiting Oz and for eventually wandering the country and going back to school. This probably means that I'm very unlikely to be doing very much traveling (I have one intended trip to make in early July, but other than visiting Oz at the end of the year, am unlikely to travel much. I'm getting really tired of working in the software industry, and the more money I save, the quicker I change what I do every day). So I'm going to be doing my best to not spend money on non-necessary things much (I will still spend _some_ money on fun things, or I'll drive myself batty).

Gotta remember to investigate savings accounts...

Intend to get my cat's heart murmur checked out, because as things are now (with no info), if he spontaneously needs to be anesthetized for some reason, that might be extra dangerous for him (it's already pretty dangerous for pets in general, due to their size). Should make an appintment for next month, I think. That way I _do_ it, already! Poor kitty; he's not going to like being at the animal hospital. I'd call now, but I need the sheet that's at home which tells me what to ask for...

(incidentally, Ash keeps making hairball sounds without any actual hairball. I'm not sure if I should be concerned)

Get to visit somewhere I might be trying to volunteer this coming Friday. The timing is... sorta uncomfortable for me, as it's from 5-7 every Friday night, probably ~15 minutes east of here (on my way home), and I don't get out of work that early (generally I leave between 5:15 and 5:30). But it probably has me helping to facilitate a GLBT youth support group! That's just nifty on so very many levels. I'm going to see if perhaps I can go less often than every week, because _that_ I could probably leave work a little early for. And it's early enough to still allow me to go to Psinging, although it might make it more difficult to bring ayalanya with me. We'll see. I'm cautiously optimistic. :)

Heh. It's mildly amusing to have to tell people who call me on the phone - even if for a valid reason - that anything that I need to remember has to be written down (if it's short, I'll write it down right there), so any necessary information needs to be snail or emailed to me, and _not_ told to me on the phone. I do not process auditory information very well, especially if there are lots of words with no pauses; let me read things, don't read them to me!

Gah.

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(link found in mactavish's journal)